You know what's sad. Realizing that it's too late to be with someone who was the only one who truly cared about you. I didn't see a great thing when it was right in front of my face for so long. We still talk and hangout occasionally, and it feels just like old times... but he has moved on. I never really gave it a chance, and I really wish I did. I don't know what it is about me, but I like to be with people who are broken in someway. When people are too nice or too giving, I feel like they are kind of boring. I'm just not used to that at all, so I react in the worst way. I wish I could just go back and fix the mistakes I've made, and tell the person I can't get out of my mind that I want them, and I'm sorry it took me forever to realize that. I guess this sort of stuff happens. I just am so sick of feeling like crap about everything, and getting flashbacks of things I'm unable to change. I just wanna be with someone, I want to be their something. I just want to feel something is all.
I want another shot, but I have to get a grip.